It was a long shower...

I am feeling so blessed!  I just found out that my grandma gets to come home from 2 1/2 months of being in the hospital. It's been quite the journey for her and my family ( but especially for her).  Thanks for all the prayers-  I believe that she couldn't have made it through without them!!!!  

And speaking of prayers....

This morning in my shower (cause I have a bath tub crayon prayer wall in there, yes it is quirky I know) I was taking account of answered prayers. All I can say is WoW Wow WOw!!!!!!  God is good!  I admit things haven't turned out exactly how I would have planned or hoped they would, but in hind site, lessons learned and truths revealed along the way have been way more beneficial than if I had "gotten my way". So i stood there this morning, overwhelmed by God's goodness and grace. Truth be told,  I really do suck.  Truth be told, I am an undeserving, ungrateful, selfish, manipulatory, brat of a human being....Which makes it all so much sweeter.  

Sometimes I am tempted to have a giant pity party for prayers not answered. (And sometimes I full out throw one and I invite some of you!- told you I suck)   Like a toddler I ask why why why of God.  I admit that life is hard and full of numerous disappointments which leaves me aching for more...new... change.  I guess what I really need to seek is more of Jesus, a new perspective, and a change of heart. 

All this to say....be encouraged....trust Jesus....pray often.  

Sometimes life sucks-  it's inevitable- and necessary for that matter.  Without hardship and disappointment we would all feel entitled and deserving which frankly is untrue, friends.  

On the flip side-  God is ALWAYS good.  Always there.  Always understanding.  Always in control.  

When I finally get to a place where I understand and accept these truths, I can grasp unanswered prayers and appreciate a God who loves me enough to guide me through life's ups and downs to make me more like himself. 

It was a long shower.....:)